Why am I awake


"Part of me won’t go away
Every day reminded how much I hate it
Weighed it against the consequences
Can’t live without it so it’s senseless
Wanna cut it out of my soul
And just live with a gaping hole
Take control of my life
And wash out all the burnt taste
I made the problems in the first place
Hang my head low ‘cause it’s part of me
You hardly see
Right next to the heart of me
Hurting me
The wounds soon scar
New cuts cover where the old ones are
And now I’m sick of this
I can’t stand the sandpaper thoughts that grade on my sanity
I’d rather not even be than the man that’s staring in the mirror through me”

"Couldn’t hide the emptiness
You let it show”

"Just didn’t drink enough to say you love me"

"I can’t hold onto me
Wonder what’s wrong with me”

"Darling, I forgive you after all
Anything is better than to be alone”

Don’t want to lock me up inside
Don’t want to forget how it feels without
I want to stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but God, I want to let it go”

"In my field of paper flowers

And candy clouds of lullaby

I lie inside myself for hours

And watch my purple sky fly over me..”


do you ever get in one of those moods where you’re like feeling okay but you’re really sad at the same time and you just want to talk to someone and make them hug you but you feel annoying so you kind of just sit there being really sad


i want people to know i’m struggling but i don’t want people to know i’m struggling do you see my problem

I honestly feel so alone right now.


Love you guys 💙


Love you guys 💙


it seems like everyone is having a really rough night, including myself.  please know i love you and that the most important thing is that you’re taking care of yourself tonight and making sure that you’re okay.